I lied for a lie....

people just tend to get the first impression that lying show dishonestly , lying means unfaithful, lying mean....not good...and there is only bad ...no good at all....is not...seriously is not...i admit i lie...but i lie for a purpose...u r reading this...dun tell me u nvr lied before...only GOd never lies....

but it is somehow makes difficult for one to understand the rationale underlying within...and partly becoz im lazy to explain my own standing..coz i think somehow they will understand it...if they dun...i really cant help it...be it my impression is bad...be it im a bitch...

i beg god to make him understand themselves...coz i do not have the effort to explain everything all over again...coz from today onward...Rachel is tired..tired of all these happening things around ~~~~

I look to you

Hey guys..while im typing this post...guess what...... im listening to whitney houston new song..again..being a sensitive person...i share it with my tears lah....haha....

Lots of stuff in this world is unexplainable ...eventhough u tend to realise what had gone wrong and yet u just cant do anything to help it......

y do god create us to c all these unhappy things around...y.????

Im so sry to those that i have done wrong to them..i know words dont show sincerity but...that the best thing i can do...

Wishing my fren..Eve...happy wedding preparation...wishing my fren Chiu Wan..had a good working...

"I need you, shine on me, I look to you, I look to you"
After all my strength is gone, in you i can strong

I believe i will found him..one day....

Im grateful today

i am so grateful today, because i finally got my first reference letter from someone that im looking forward to work wif him in the future...Thank you Mr. Perry Tan Teck Meng...u show me there r still kind ppl in this world that willing to help me..THOROUGHLY....

This person..he is my ex-boss...he is the one who ask me to take up this course...he is the one who started my life on..and he is definately one of the most respected person in my life...he sound old right? he is not...he is young and cool...most importantly..he is single and available..hmn...everything is jus too perfect on him as a kind person...

yoday is a meeting after four years..after the day i left his firm..i tot he gonna mad at me..like all other bosses did..but he is not...and he is willing to advise me whenever and wherever i moved on...i appreciate him a lot and in my life....i feel so grateful to have him..

Im not trying to show off here..or what ..is jus that...i want to let you know..if u do good to people...and he will do good to you...foremost...there r still kind ppl in this world that we hoped upon....

i cherish the pain that i had during my employment...it makes me grow so much more than jus an ordinary law student..for those who thinks that im bad....pls dont...cos...i assure u ..u gonna be worst than me in this society...

today...in this legal market...is jus like sales and marketting...if u intend to be a conveyancing lawyers..most firm tend to ignore the bar council rulings...and most lawyers forget how they are suppose to act...

Remember...anyone can become a lawyer and a bare lawyer will not gain respect from people..only those who remember their enthic and origins will...so..which one u want to be....??

Confessions of a shopaholic....

What are you thinking right now? That I am a shopaholic?...Shopping…honestly is must thing to do ..especially for girl…not to say especially …I mean is not an unusual thing to do for girls…but indeed….We are jus being girls that poisoned by the magical elements that laid by those designers…perhaps I may say…they are born with the mind…a kind of mind that …you know…we cant just escape by a further of “two minute looking”….

Let me tell u apart of a true story in my life…I used to have a friend…yea …used to have a friend…a really good friend…who can piled up her bookshelf with all those “adult” stories book..publisher such as “The Little black dress”…you know…those company feature series of book that can fill up the imaginative world of a GIRL/WOMAN..what I want to emphasize here…is the movie version of the book named “Confessions of a shopaholic”

You know… I never touches those “stories book” because my perception of those is…”stories book being stories that would never be important for me…infact …I cant even finish my law book ..which is an essential of my life, what more for them?
Oh yea…back this movie….major ….storied on how the habit of spending affect her life, but from what I have seen and how it implicates me….it makes me thought more than that. It tells how material life affect a live, it tells the consequences of being stubborn and unchanged i.e. “old fashion”…and it tells me what is the consequences if yourself do not dare to face your won problem..even the man you loved would leave you…and of course…..HONESTLY ..makes why he left her…

But that’s not important, I realize that sometimes when you think you know X really well, she is your bestie….best of the bestie…..let me advise you something..you don’t know her that well, because you don’t stay with her, if ever she tell u everything…there must be something left out…never be sure on your perception unless you are 500% more sure than an ordinarily people. Those tiny tiny stuff that she left out in her conversation with you….will be the strike of the quarrel one day…..
I have a question for my old friend…a sensitive question of which trigger a break up between me and my ex boyfriend years ago…she partly stimulate the quarrel between us which lead to the breakup..of which I believe i always wanted an answer whenever I was hanging out with her..Because I felt betrayed…. not until I find the truth…..but I never confront her because my rational tells me is not worth fighting with her for a true that belongs to an unhappy relationship…he is just not the one…this is what makes me keep my patient with her and pro-long it until now..perhaps..i shall say…only recently…..

The relationship broke down…for a small little thing…of which I could not be possibly tolerate….her words hurt me…and hurt me lot….at that point of time…I called myself a fool..of all these while by resisting my own anger on her…for all these while building on a patient mood when dealings with her.. I may be wrong….but I don’t wish to find out the true anymore…because I realize….i don’t need to hold on to myself for someone like her…..even like what happen in this movie, “the girl with the green scarf”… at the end manage to be the bridesmaid for her bestie….i will not regret that I will not have one on my wedding……

I hope she understand what’s right and what’s wrong….and what’s actually deliberately went wrong..

Life...is like jurisprudence..which will never have the answer...

Great, school start again..and I want to congratulate myself because I am contend with my result…The most important thing is, i met all my old friend, some has gain weight,..some has lost….everybody was struggling in selecting what will be the suitable subject for themselves….Atc gives me a feeling….feel like in the Battlefield…and only the strong survive..which is true but in my batch of lawmates..one would always be the Queen…that our world best record holder..Your majesty..Rebecca Yuvonne..she is jus so cool..and she is a legend..she is like jurisprudence…of a question that never have the answer (mr.Amerjit)….

In the moment of thinking how she did that..and did it over again…I picked my subject…gonna do..European Union Law..so that I get a qualified degree..Company Law, because it is definitely practical…and Conflicts of Law..because it is interesting..Jurisprudence is a must…y it is a must? Again…a question that never have the answer…It is OBVIOUSLY foreseeable…I would not have much time to study…not much time to tok abt relationship…not much time to relax myself….

For all…I made an important decision..i broke up with him….a decision that I told myself I can never regret and can never forget…I strongly believe that this is the best for us....everyone was asking why? Why ? and why?...there is no reason why….the decision jus came up like that…I took into account all sort consideration…and I need him to understand..love is not everything..infact..in my perception…love is not the most fundamentals in my life..for NOW……

Someone must be cursing me by now..telling that…of what I heard about this bitch….i knew she gonna act like that…ahh…for whatever shit that every others told….i couldn’t be able to care….they own their mouth after all..but one thing that makes them sound silly is that…they don’t seem to understand the situation…they r not in a better position to judge someone else…after all…they are not as great as god….i accept what they think abt me….

They are alwsi ppl around…that try their hardcore life on..in messing ppl life up…all around the coll..all around me…I wonder..how can they get so free…in truth….I undertake obligations for myself…I undertake responsibilities…that some other may not even have bother…..my life is not like those rich princess tat can do thing on their own….because…im poor in my life…I cant lose….because I got nothing to lose….

I don’t wan to get attached to anything…because..i am tired…tired for all other bullshit that happen to me before…for whatever they are thinking…jus go ahead..and bitch abt me…but..those who understand ..will understand…try to ask urself…y r u here on earth…what impetus is ur life on? Who do u live for..and what do u live for….Im sure if u can answer these…u will realize…u actually did things that is wasting ur time, effort and money…why not try important things out first and keep the rest for ur spare time…u will feel …fell…….FULL…heart is..FULL…of what u want….

Guess what…until today…im still learning…of what my life suppose to be..and no one can understand me…including…someone who was the closest by my side….

So now…I felt miserable…because..life is jus like a jurisprudence…which will never have the answer…

A lecture by Joel

First of all i would like to tell you that...yes..." i am jobless" throughout the three month break...This is the first time ever during this damn freaking free day i decide to write something abt the thought in my mind....is been a "leech" in my mind sucking all my courage and excitements to do stuff...

Now is really the right time to think about what i actually want in my life....i couldnt answer this question, is more difficult than understanding 3 certainties in Trust....(someone is smilling at this text now) ...yeah you know what i mean ...can u feel it.....

there was one day...a coursemate told me i should go UK to become a Barrister...for around 100K to 150K....literally looking at it money is not a problem but to live better with the same amount of money is difficult and...its gonna be a problem,because that amount of money is simply not enough....but a more practical thinking, there are whole lots of ways to earn it back if you are a barrister...by that time the amount of money you found with your legal privilege, is far more and more and more than now...so should i go or should i stay?

what abt the people around here.....People? who do i have...yeah i did have quite a number of person that i truly cares for.....but i think they will understand that...

This have been my thinking all these while before a lecture by Joel....jus now...after what he had analyse and told me i had made up my mind that going to Uk was a really stupid thing to do for me which comes from a middle range of family....perhaps staying here and continue doing the same thing that i was suppose to do...it may not be a bad thing to do....

Today i was in MPH, i manage to get to read on a book titled " HOW TO SUCCESS for 101 REASONS" i was impressed by the Preface...it quoted " GOD creates man with a purpose and we are born for that purpose"..to be success simply to understand what is our own purpose in life, execute it with perfection...then we are consider as a successful person...is PERFECTION...and only PERFECTION......

I am now ....in the middle of the night...thinking....what is my purpose of my life if i were to take up the words by Joel....plans it with my dreamt-PERFECTION.....

THis is a post above 18SXX, only those who with intellectual mind who understand it....and credit given more to those studying in ATC

Well, you might think the following sound violent, bad, rude, indecent or whatever...
but i will tell you now, i have experience this...this is ABSOLUTELY comfortable for them who fall under this catagory...u jus dun understand the way they act...again n again..testing ur temper...and now i burst...and they atleast deserve the nicely wording to compliment them...
other ppl jus dun get this kind of ADMIRATION...they r jus so lucky to be called....as a B-I-T-C-H...BITCH

Dear Bitch.....

YOu think you are just so great
i think u r JUS a whore
with red red blusher on your face
oh please...go and bang the wall

you think you have sexy back
always wear on the red AX
keep your butt and slip away
ot girl chill ther n u were unaware

you are jus a slip on a lad
no length, no height and of course no ass
Dont yell dont cry if this hit your face
cos you r jus a bitch that ppl not afraid

this is a twinkle twinkle star -user friendly version

Name wif a M-G and A,
People know you wif your bloody face
and ask the mirror on the wall
whose the fairest of your all
Mirror gloss on a dark dark place
think the shit even better on its way

Disclaimer : The above is a sincere fair comment and opinion on those person attitude, and dedicate to all my fren that cant stand such a person in their life..happy singing the adult version of lullaby.......cheers

NB : Practice the bitchology to be a good bitch...BItch......